Scientology?????

Any ideas WTF this is all about???

I have been watching the Leah Remini show for over 12 months now and still find myself a little speechless after every episode!  What benefits does the government, clearing including the Treasury Dept and the IRS have to gain from allowing this cult to be considered a genuine church/religion and therefor enjoy the billion dollar tax free status that real faiths are entitled to?  It screams some type of monetary gane for the government since it generates billions each year.  Since, no one in their right freakin mind can seriously declare this to be a religion right?

God made us, and not only us physically but everything you can see, eat, touch, small, hear, taste, think, imagine, wish for, dream of, go to and be thankful for.

You don’t believe in Jesus Christ being our savoir? Fair enough, that’s your right.  We all have our beliefs.  Easy!

However, to listen to and take in what these nut jobs talk about just simply baffles me.  I mean, seriously makes me want to smash my own head through a wall.  The ‘founder/con- artists/lunatic’ was worth approximately $600m back in the 1960’s!!!!!!  And lived on International waters to prevent him being arrest by the US government for many different corruption charges.  And this group of clowns is still allowed to exist and prosper!  The pastor in my church is asking us to pray on our tithing habits in order to help the church pay the $24k to simply make bills for the year!

I’m already exhausted thinking about the lunacy of this cult.

Please, any takers?

I’ll always be my brother’s keeper from all enemies, domestic included!!

 

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Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. John 15:13

Sgt Robert Barrett,  KIA 4/19/2010 wrote this before deploying to Afghanistan in January 2010

“I volunteered to put my life on the line for freedom and country. For my fellow soldiers, for my little girl, for my weeping mother and father.  “I am going to a land where American freedom is just a dream, a hope, a slow reality. I am an American soldier.”

Tomorrow marks America’s Veterans Day.  It is a sad day for many of us veterans, it is also a proud day.  I have often, and continue to have those days where I scream and yell at God for sending me over there.  I did the maths one day (gave myself a headache too) and figured out that in a 7 year period of 2006-2013 I had spend roughly 3.5 years over seas on combat zones.  I was drafted, no one forced me to go.  I went of my own free will and sought opportunities to go back again and again. Why?  God knew I was going, he actually came to me in 2012 and told me to go on my final deployment.  He knew I was going to go and he knows my heart.  After all, he created it and knows it better than I do.

Why do I think I have the right then, to yell and scream at him for all the baggage I now carry?  I know the BS we went through, and I know the good and the bad that happened. Much of it unavoidable, but some of it was decided by ourselves.  Remember the ‘free will’ he gave us as a gift!?

Having said that I do and, I am embarrassed that I treat him in such a way at times.  But I know he can take it and I know that he’s ok with it, he just wants to draw me closer to him.   So tomorrow, I am sure I will have a word with him about the whole thing.  I’ll be hunting in the morning since work is closed to observe this sacred day.  Plenty of time to gather my thoughts and speak to him while I chase the ghost like creature I hope to eat for my dinner.  Perhaps some afternoon beverages with a fellow veteran to toast our brothers and sisters, pausing for moment to pray extra hard for ones that didn’t make it home, like my brother in arms, Sgt Barrett.

So I ask you to take a moment to pray for all our veterans.  Past, present and those just beginning the proud life changing journey.  Whether a vet stayed CONUS or was sent with rifle to meet the enemy on a far flung battle field, they all deserve a hand shake, and even a hug.  Even better, a cold beer! 🙂

And for all my screaming and shouting, tears and tantrums; I thank our Lord every single day for allowing me the opportunity to serve and proudly call myself a United States soldier.  There are perhaps something’s I would change, go left and not right for example.  Its in the past and I know I did the best I could in combat, lead by example and with courage for the guys to feed off and use.  I cry and I smile, I scream and I hide in loneness.  I yell out for help and I retreat to the comfort of myself and my self hate.  Its all part of being a child of God.

When a person dies and meets God, they may ask themselves “what did I give back to my fellow man? A veteran doesn’t have to worry about that question.

I am proud to be my brother’s keeper!!

 

 

 

Can writing kill the demons?

About to leave work for the weekend and wanted to share one last thing that’s been weighing on me for quite some time.

Through my PTSD treatment at the VA, one form of treatment that we concluded was extremely helpful to me is the written word! Even though, I fully understand I am no Shakespeare, I do enjoy it and it allows me to share thoughts that I could never share in person, or would simply avoid sharing.

I am about to embark on a dark and deep journey into uncovering years of nightmarish events I suffered as a child.  Right now, your mind or minds, if there is more than one of you bored enough to be reading this, have gone to a specific place.  I would make a bet I know where your minds have gone, and you are correct.

Pending my health case transfer from MA to TX I will begin down a road I have been avoiding for YEARS! Now compounded with enlisting in the Army and going to war, its something I don’t want to touch…..nope, not now not ever. Nope nope nope…..

What am I looking for right now? Support? Ideas? Hope? Little of everything? haha… I guess to potentially hear that there are others out there that find this whole writing lark helpful? My wife suggested it and I genuinely enjoy it.  My own self made treatment plan of year after year of avoidance, drink, anger, hate, drink, self hate, drink, rage, solitude, drink and…….another beer have not worked. You can say “no sh*t Mike” haha

Its overwhelming, and right as I feel I have a really good handle on my combat related PTSD, I am now crawling down a much different and even darker rabbit hole….

I know God has a wonderful plan to turn all this bollocks into something magnificent!! WTF that could be I don’t know and I get very angry that it happened in the first place, and why to me? Why to any kid??

Though, I do say with all the love in my heart, I hope God blesses you all.

OK, time for a beer!!!

I am now, and will always be my brother’s keeper!

 

 

 

Could be quite the weekend!

TGIF guys!!! However, it could prove a rather interesting weekend, depending on how much you read (away from main stream media) and what you believe.

Antifa protests, EMP government drills, blackouts and possible general civil unrest.  What do we make of all this? None of it has made the main stream media, which doesn’t surprise me.  So then we need to decide what is legit news and what is utter bollocks.  I think its fair to say that at the very least, Antifa are trying to rally some of the ‘minions’ for some protesting.  There also seems to be some credible evidence that the government is preparing to run a mock EMP attack drill in some major cities across the US.

I’m honestly up in the air about what’s really going to happen.  My gut tells me that this is going to be one of those more of a bark than actual bite type situations.  That the weekend will come and go without any incidents from anyone.  Having said that,  I am going hunting in the morning but do plan on being home by lunch time ‘just in case’ something happens.  Am I mad for prepping for something that could be utter tripe?  Either way, the soldier in me is still screaming BE PREPARED!

If you are incredibly bored this morning and happen to be reading this, all I say is, be ready for anything and be safe. Make smart,  informed and thought out decisions.

Say a prayer too!! I think God is speaking to us all in ways that some of us are hearing and some are struggling.  My fear is many are not even trying to listen.  We are in troubling times guys and I hope that as a population we can see through the flock and make our own smart decisions.  We are being herded into doing what the establishments want us to do.  They want us to fight each other.  That way, they can come in and initiate radical reforms to law and order, taking away even more God given AND constitutional rights that we are barely clinging on to tat this time.

I am going to stay away from it all and look out for my wife and dog, and myself.  I can honestly say I don’t think I have the self control to not fall into the trap.  I know I will start smacking people around and just play into their hands.  Be the bigger person and make the same decision to stay away too if you know your demons may get the better of you.  The devil wants you to fail every single day and this weekend could be the perfect storm right at your doorstep.

Have water, food and firearms ready this weekend to protect your family, yourself and your property.  May God bless you all.

I am my brothers keeper!

God’s plan for me?

What a question right? Anyone got the answer? hahaha…. The big guy has been pretty quiet with me lately and I have been asking him many questions.  We recently moved to Texas coming down from New England and we both felt called to this part of the Country by God.  We have both been getting a little frustrated by the immediate lack of clarification for our journey by God.  Even though we both know its all in his hands and it will all be done in HIS time. Putting together the pieces of the move alone have been a challenge and I think we had hoped for an answer to why we were sent down here by him.

We have been church shopping and of course one of the major messages we hear on a weekly basis is that Jesus forgives us and always forgives us.  This is truly breath-taking and uplifting.  I need to ask however, are there any veterans out there that, although love and follow Jesus, have a hard time understanding the depth of his love and forgiveness for us?

Considering my past, including time in uniform I go back and forth between overwhelming feelings of his grace and then spiraling feelings of confusion and guilt about how I have let him down so badly.  Therefore, how can he continue to love me and forgive me?

What will I say to him when I finally meet him as an old man? What will he say to me?

Any thoughts?